Growth

Thinking about this year to date, it has been peppered with change and growth. Seeing the body from a new lens, experiencing my own body and movements in many new and different ways, seeing without glasses (I got Lasik!). It has revolved heavily around change and growth. Currently reporting from the next chapter of my current growth spurt here in San Diego. As I’ve built my connection both to my body, its patterns of stuckness and movement, and my psychological patterns of stuckness and movement, it has been both very challenging and incredibly rewarding. While I’m ready to understand the depth of this work and its impact on not only my life but the lives of those I’m privileged to work with, I’ll continue to patiently wait and track the changes as they occur. Isn’t that the way? Showing up, paying attention, being present with what is, rinse and repeat. I was musing this morning on a different time in my life when I really wanted to be anywhere but where I was: physically, mentally, emotionally, in all of the ways.

As I approach 40 this December I am grateful to say that I am here and happy with where here is. I see the lines on my face and the little sprigs of gray and silver sprouting and dotting the vista of my hairline and I’m grateful. Grateful for the wisdom I’ve acquired, to know that while I haven’t figured it out yet, that all of life will be layered with arrival, departure, renewal, elation, confusion, all of it. Every wave will continue to go out to sea and return to shore. Feelings will come and go and change is inevitable. Change can happen through inattention, repetition and indecision or attention, consistency and choice. As I continue to peel back each layer of my existence, this body, my psychological patterning, etc. I will continue to try to do better. To seek consistent, small changes that add up to big results that affect both myself, my family, my community and the world in a more positive way. Thank you for being apart of that community. Thank you for continuing to seek growth within yourself.  Thank you for reading my thoughts and experience along the way.